Hi, I am Dainey. A little about me. I am 29 years old and have been married for almost eight years. I have two beautiful children, a dog I can't stand, and a wonderful life. The problem? I am not happy with who I am. I had my first child when I was 21 years old, which was the most wonderful thing that has ever happened to me and I would not change one second of the past 7 1/2 years. The day he was born, I gained a happiness that I never knew existed. My capacity for love grew beyond my wildest dreams. And my body gained and gained and gained! I was somewhat thrown into this life, and wonderful as it is, getting married, buying our first house, having a child, and starting my first business was a lot to take on in less than twelve months, which is exactly what happened. In that whirlwind, and since, I feel that I have given pieces of myself away. Slowly at first but as life got busier my self love savings account got smaller. Until one day I woke up and looked in the mirror and no longer recognized who it was looking back at me. Yes I am a mother, a wife, a daughter, a sister, a friend. I am so many things to so many people but who am I to myself?
Well that is what I am here to find out. Starting today I am going to start becoming Dainey, whoever that may be.
To begin this journey, and somewhat of a slap in the face to the entire idea of this blog, I started the HCG diet. I really really really don't want to but in an effort to support my mother who I am doing it with and who I love beyond words, I am going to spend the next 45 days exploring the wonderful world of the 500 calorie a day diet. This is extra hard for me because I am on the road to becoming a vegan. I've discovered I don't really like meat, and really would prefer not to eat it anymore, but I will get much farther into that subject in subsequent postings. The HCG diet is comprised mostly of meat. Chicken and steak being the only ones on the list that I can even fathom eating and that is saying a lot because I have hated chicken since my first pregnancy. But I figure this will be a good kick start. A final push and reminder of why I want to become a vegan, and hopefully after all is said and done I'll be at least more comfortable in a pair of jeans. Jeans! Oh boy, they are my enemy right now, I exist for work out pants and it makes me sad. The thought of the button at the top of a pair of jeans poking into my belly makes me tired and makes me never want to leave my house. All the more reason to start this journey.
So today is the day. Phase 1 started this morning. For two days I must take the HCG drops and stuff myself to capacity. The problem is I am not hungry and its hot. Funny, who would have thought that forcing yourself to eat junk would be hard, tee hee. In addition I must drink a gallon of water, I am 3/4 of the way there for the day, I shall be peeing like a prego all night I am sure.
Goodnight.
Well that is what I am here to find out. Starting today I am going to start becoming Dainey, whoever that may be.
To begin this journey, and somewhat of a slap in the face to the entire idea of this blog, I started the HCG diet. I really really really don't want to but in an effort to support my mother who I am doing it with and who I love beyond words, I am going to spend the next 45 days exploring the wonderful world of the 500 calorie a day diet. This is extra hard for me because I am on the road to becoming a vegan. I've discovered I don't really like meat, and really would prefer not to eat it anymore, but I will get much farther into that subject in subsequent postings. The HCG diet is comprised mostly of meat. Chicken and steak being the only ones on the list that I can even fathom eating and that is saying a lot because I have hated chicken since my first pregnancy. But I figure this will be a good kick start. A final push and reminder of why I want to become a vegan, and hopefully after all is said and done I'll be at least more comfortable in a pair of jeans. Jeans! Oh boy, they are my enemy right now, I exist for work out pants and it makes me sad. The thought of the button at the top of a pair of jeans poking into my belly makes me tired and makes me never want to leave my house. All the more reason to start this journey.
So today is the day. Phase 1 started this morning. For two days I must take the HCG drops and stuff myself to capacity. The problem is I am not hungry and its hot. Funny, who would have thought that forcing yourself to eat junk would be hard, tee hee. In addition I must drink a gallon of water, I am 3/4 of the way there for the day, I shall be peeing like a prego all night I am sure.
Goodnight.
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